Enjoy the poem. Check out the reading on YouTube below. Find Phoenix at http://amazon.com/author/phoenix_rises
to recognize his mental health
was mental hell
he had to decide
what he wanted to do
but this at the time
didn’t feel true
to
his desire for
other worlds and
beautiful words
a psychosis unable to resist
he hated doctors for
dictating everything
every day
making him numb
from feeling
dumb
just wanted to write
a novel
novel
but didn’t know how
too much chaos
in it
his mind unable
to insist something better
resist the delusion
and thought illusion
I know
he hated treatment
he said it
because he felt
paranoid and
deep in a void
a reality of mind
he couldn’t avoid
couldn’t understand
enough of the truth
of mental illness
of recovery
this wild world of mental discovery
too much
such
an overwhelming reality
unable to think
or speak
but maybe write poems
about
going home
desire for heaven uneven
desire for
a better reality
a life he wanted to live well
doing well
be okay and heal
I’m your doctor who prescribed you the pill.
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